things are getting better and easier. my wife and i are talking more and spending more time together. we’re reconnecting and strengthening our marriage. she’s been explaining some of the aspects of her relationship with her bf that had me hurt the most so now i’m adjusting better to the situation. i’m not going to lie, it does still hurt and make me uncomfortable. it’s hard to adjust to the thought and knowledge that another man is holding her and making her happy.
i’m lonely a lot lately. i have my family, but there’s not much the kids can do and my wife has another relationship to be a part of. i miss having someone to hangout with and spend time with. i got used to having T and J around. i mean i was seeing J almost every day. i know need to be alone. i need to adjust and fix things and take care of myself before i can think of dating someone else.
i don’t think of J as much. usually when my wife is with the bf i’ll think of her. or if i hear a certain song. but it’s getting less and less.