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so she just left. i’m glad i got to spend a little extra time with her. i was a bit of an ass last night and it put a crimp in our plans :(. i’m trying to stay focused on all the things i do for her that he doesn’t. it’s hard. i miss her already. i’m making a conscious effort not to text her and tell her i miss her. i think i’m going to avoid texting her unless she texts me first. to be honest i would probably be more comfortable with her going if they were just friends instead of a couple.
i don’t know if this means that i’m just weak and insecure and not cut out for this lifestyle or if it simply means that i need to grow up some more. maybe it’s a bit of all of it. maybe this weekend will do us some good. sometime apart to bring things to focus and perspective. can’t hurt right?