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so i fucked up yet again…on mothers day nonetheless. our main rule is to be honest with each other. and i haven’t always been honest with her. i;m afraid she’ll get mad if she finds out that i’m talking to someone (especially if it starts getting flirtatious). and since i don’t tell her and she finds out she gets pissed. i don’t know why i can’t stop lying. it’s like i’m so afraid of doing the wrong thing, that i do it anyways.
So when it comes to T i’m not supposed to delete any messages and tell her when i talk to her. today while we were out she went through my phone and saw that i had sent her a message saying ‘hey baby’. i didn’t mean it in a flirty way, but i can see why my wife would be upset. this girl has had a huge thing for me for over a year and i just found out that she’s pregnant by one of her FWBs.
so my wife thinks there’s something going on and even though there’s not, given my past mistakes i really can’t blame her/ i don’t know why this is so hard for me. i want to be happy and make my relationship work but i keep making all these stupid mistakes over and over
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i’m such an ass. i lost my temper today and actually yelled at C. i don’t why. i just lost it. i’ve very rarely lost it like that and everytime i do i hate myself even more than i usually do when we fight. last night i got upset by a post she made about her dinner. about frickin mac and cheese and i just started over analyzing and over thinking things.
so she comes home today and i mention that i had a rough night and day and when she asked why i told her. i know it was stupid to be upset and i hate myself for hurting her.
i don’t know why i can’t just shake this part of me. it’d be so simple if i could just discard it like a piece of trash. i miss being happy and confident with my wife. i miss the man i used to be. the man she deserves
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i’m taking a step back from looking for other partners (probably for good) i need to focus on my marriage and making stronger and better for the both of us
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i’m sorry i’ve hurt you and let you down so many times. i know i have my issues and that they can be a lot to handle at times. i may not always be tactful with what i say or how i say it. we’ve had our rough times and our really great times. when things have been at their roughest in our life together you’ve always been right there beside me.
when i first met you i knew you were special ( i just didn’t know how much). i never expected to find in you not just my best friend but also the love of my life and the woman who makes me the happiest in my life. you’ve changed my life in so many ways and i’m sorry i lost sight of that.
you mean the world to me and have brought so much love and joy into my life. i’ve overthought and overreacted and judged you harshly (far more than you deserve). i gave into to doubts, fears and insecurities and refused to listen or look beyond myself. i know that you would never do anything to hurt me and i’m sorry for thinking that you would
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so sat night i hung out with my wife, her bf and her ex. it actually went pretty well
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My husband is such a gooey romantic. He got me gifts and is cooking me a glorious dinner. My gift? I’m gonna turn my phone on silent at 7 for the rest of the night. Trust me, it’s a big deal lol
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magic
so apparently i have a magic dick. it certainly made my wife feel completely better :)
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